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My inner GPS has decided to take over scheduling my life, and it’s been a fascinating thing to watch.
I recently transitioned into full-time self-employment, and a coach friend suggested I plan out my days to ensure I get stuff done. Normally, that’d sound like heaven to my schedule-loving, list-obsessed self, but before she even finished the sentence, I knew it wasn’t right for me.
Very quickly, I discovered that I can sketch out an idea of what I want to get done during the week, but attempting to delegate tasks to certain days feels like I’m trying to run directly into hurricane-force winds. It’s too freaking hard, and, of course, goes totally against my easy experiment.
So instead of planning, I’m trusting: trusting my inner GPS to guide me, trusting that everything that needs to get done will, trusting that when something I’d tried to plan changes, it’s because something else—maybe even something better—is coming my way instead.
As for things that really do have to be scheduled, like doctor appointments or deadlines for projects, they still fit perfectly in to this way of living. How? Because these are things I’m choosing to do for myself because they feel right, plus I know that everything else in my life can be flexible. So the scheduling (and the doing) does still happen, but with the added bonus that there’s less stress around it all.
Letting go and trusting the process really does take the pressure off. I still get disappointed something didn’t work out or have moments of regret that I didn’t get something done, but those feelings tend to pass pretty quickly. More often than not, I’m living in a state of curiosity about why things happened the way it did, where this is going, and what exciting things are coming my way. It’s actually pretty damn fun living this way.
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At this point you very well may be thinking something along the lines of, “But I can’t live like this because I have a job/have to take care of my family/need to constantly keep my eye on my Ebay auctions.” Trust me, I totally get it. I’ve spent the vast majority of my life being told where I needed to be and when, so I never take this opportunity or this freedom for granted.
This is just where my inner GPS has led me, and, ultimately, that’s what this post is about—letting go, being led, and allowing what wants to happen just happen. In my case, I was led to stop trying to control of my life, to stop giving other people permission to control it, and instead to Trust with a capital “T.”
Now, lest you think that one day I just casually switched from being an over-thinking super-scheduler to a feeling-my-way non-scheduler, I just want to say—Not. Even. Close.
While there were many wonderful, magical moments along my journey, it was also a scary, difficult and (at times) seemingly endless road littered with struggle and fear. I knew things were going to change, but I just couldn’t imagine how, even as I stuck with all my coaching training.
My brain was constantly firing off thoughts along the lines of “But what if [insert bad thing here] happens?” There was a strong inner battle between holding on and letting go. But, with help from fabulous coaches and my amazing holistic healthcare practitioner, I kept doing the internal work I needed to do and continued checking in with my inner GPS about which direction I should take.
Then one day, suddenly and unexpectedly, it was like a switch flipped. I knew without a doubt what I needed to do, and I felt calm, clear, and completely confident about the big leap of faith I knew I needed to take. The excitement overtook the nerves, and the “what ifs” went from scary images of my future to truly amazing possibilities of where this life will lead me.
So if you’re struggling, I’ve been there. I know how crappy it can feel to be in it, and I know how incredible it can feel to be on the other side of it. I promise you that even when it seems like you’re not making progress, you are; the steps you’re taking, no matter how small, really will all add up.
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Sometimes we all need a little help to keep moving forward, so if that’s where you are these days, here’s an easy turtle step you can take: email me at firstname.lastname@example.org to schedule your free 30-minute consultation.
(And yes, I did say “schedule.” In this case, it’s totally worth it, because I can’t imagine anything better than filling my days with helping awesome people like you create better lives.)
Katie Baron: life coach, freelance writer, animal and nature lover, musician, relentless optimist